6 Unhealthy Things You Do Instead Of Expressing Your Real Emotions
When we refuse to feel our emotions, they control us instead of the other way around.
André Carlos via Canva By Shreyasi Debnath
If you keep using defense mechanisms to avoid your feelings, they might end up wreaking havoc on your psyche.
The one most crucial element which makes us who we are — humans — is our ability to experience and express a plethora of emotions.
Can you imagine yourself without the ability to feel and respond to those feelings?
You would rather not, because, sans emotions, we lose a major part of our identity.
Life is beautiful solely because we are gifted with the superpower to feel.
It indeed is a superpower!
Without feelings, our life would be a plain canvas or one with monochromatic colors.
But a coin is always double-sided.
Given a chance, you can easily recall plenty of circumstances where you have wished you lacked emotions, cursed them, and wondered why you could feel them in the first place.
We have all been there.
Emotions are signals to the body about ourselves and our surroundings — when we need to protect ourselves, when we need to prepare, and when we need to let go.
They give us feedback about our surroundings and whether or not it is safe for us to be in.
Once you shut your emotions off, you have potentially eliminated a powerful sense.
Mostly, this is how our story of destruction and damage begins.
We do not harm ourselves by being vulnerable or feeling things, we do so when we try to sabotage the natural process of feeling.
What do we usually do when we feel overwhelmed with emotions?
Instead of letting the emotions flow, we do the worst by using all of the defense mechanisms at our disposal to ward off the feeling; anything we can get hold of — avoidance, denial, ignorance, or suppression — to take control over our emotions.
What we get oblivious to is that this only leads us to be psychologically more conflicted and devastated.
Alienating our emotions as a temporary solution only brings forth graver consequences in the future.
As said by Sabaa Tahir in A Torch Against The Night, “Your emotions make you human. Even the unpleasant ones have a purpose. Don’t lock them away. If you ignore them, they just get louder and angrier.”
Here are 6 unhealthy things you do instead of expressing your real emotions, and how it affects your health:
1. Denial
Have you ever been faced with a situation so triggering that you simply choose to believe it never happened?
Or that nothing is wrong and you are okay?
If you answer in affirmation, you have already been there.
When we experience something uncomfortable, embarrassing, or traumatizing, we simply choose to deny it because denying seems easier than confronting the difficult feelings.
But it’s necessary to know that denial helps, but only in limited quantities and time spans.
Denial keeps us away from reality and hence, makes it harder to get access to our true internal world.
So, the faster you acknowledge your emotions, however unpleasant they are, the faster you get in touch with reality and the quicker you get over the painful emotion.
2. Withdrawal
Withdrawal is when a person does not want to interact with or participate in activities with other people, even the ones they initially liked interacting with.
It is a total cut-off from human contact and is different from occasional withdrawal from socializing.
Some people withdraw because they feel overwhelmed around other people or when they fail to control their intimidating negative emotions like anger, jealousy, envy, guilt, shame, frustration, etc., which places them in a humiliating situation.
Others might also withdraw from situations and people because they do not want to feel the negative emotions evoked by the stimuli.
Of course, this is a maladaptive way to deal with conflicting and undesirable emotions, because one cannot withdraw permanently for life just to avoid feeling negative emotions.
Withdrawing also results in the person slipping into loneliness.
3. Avoidance
Avoidance is basically the first step to ultimately withdrawing.
A person avoids as long as possible but withdraws when all other means to ward off the feelings go in vain.
If you are at a party and someone is trying to flirt with you and you are not liking it, then maybe your first thought will be to avoid him/her.
When we are faced with an unwanted situation, our primal instincts are to either face or avoid it, something we know as “fight or flight”.
This makes avoidance a defense mechanism to protect ourselves from undesirable situations.
Often, when we experience negative emotions, we try to forcibly push them aside by dictating to ourselves that the triggering stimuli are not potent enough.
When someone says something bad about us, if we feel hurt and still tell ourselves to “Just forget about it,” “Leave it,” or “It’s not a huge matter,” we are actually not validating our true feelings.
We rather, are avoiding it.
4. Humor
It is always easier to laugh away your pains than to explain to oneself and others how you feel.
It’s surprising to note that people who have experienced emotional neglect, lack of love, and understanding in childhood use more jokes and humor as a defense to light up others and themselves.
Making jokes and laughing at them is easier than facing our discomfort.
But over time, if you always laugh away your disturbing feelings, you gradually deprive yourself of the empathy, understanding, and support that you deserve.
People start believing that your jokes are a cause of your genuine happiness and contentment in life and not a shield to protect your unacceptable emotions.
5. Emotional eating
Imagine a person literally eating as much as possible to stuff down whatever he/she is feeling and to push the feelings back to where they came from.
Our main reason to eat is to satisfy our physiological need for hunger, but many people end up eating to relieve stress and cope with feelings like loneliness, boredom, self-hatred, and sadness.
Every time you feel sad, you end up ordering yourself a pizza to “make yourself feel good” or just sit with a pint of ice cream because you are feeling lonely or don’t feel productive.
When eating becomes your basic coping strategy for daily problems, you never really get a chance to address the feelings underlying it.
This type of emotional eating gets you stuck in an unhealthy cycle.
Eating might be temporarily rewarding, but the feelings that triggered it are left unresolved, which will recurrently come back.
6. Distraction
Every single day, we consciously force ourselves to distract ourselves from unacceptable things to regain our focus on things we feel are comparatively easier to handle.
Avoiding our feelings by distracting ourselves is something that we do on a daily basis to keep freeing ourselves from the emotional trauma we will have to otherwise go through.
Suppose you are upset over how your boss criticized you at work and now you are completely engrossed in ruminating over the conversation and the feelings of worthlessness, shame, guilt, and self-loathing that the incident triggered in you.
It is very likely that you would keep yourself busy by watching tv, reading books, or playing games over the phone just to distract yourself from all the unhealthy thoughts plaguing your mind.
Instead of trying to find out the ‘whys’ and ‘whats’ of the incident, you end up trying to distract yourself from the emotion, which again is a useless way of coping.
Distraction can be temporarily beneficial, but over time it will come out in sneaky ways like through displacement — in which you will ultimately end up unconsciously displacing these suppressed emotions on people and things other than the actual trigger.
Why is avoiding our true feelings maladaptive for our mental health?
Feelings, thoughts, and emotions we experience over our lifetime are never completely forgotten.
Unwanted feelings, desires, and emotions which are unacceptable to society make it difficult for us to freely express them.
Some desires and impulses like hatred, jealousy, and sexual impulses are destructive in nature if acted on and can get us in trouble if fully expressed, so we find it legitimate to push them within ourselves rather than express them.
When we hinder our natural flow of emotions, we are not being genuine to ourselves.
Unexpressed emotions are badly regulated emotions.
We think of these emotions as forgotten, but in reality, you are actually pushing them to your subconsciousness.
Suppressed emotions are nothing but extra energy that you are carrying within yourself, which interferes with the homeostasis of the organism.
As you keep suppressing emotions over a longer period of time, you make it stronger as you are not allowing it to dissipate through any means.
To keep on pushing your unacceptable impulses and emotions at the back of your mind instead of addressing them or releasing them through cathartic means, will one day build up to the point of leaking through more dangerous means.
Imagine a water pipe with a vault on it.
The more the volume of water flows through the pipe, the higher the pressure and unless you release the vault, the pipe will start leaking from cracks.
Suppressed emotions find a way through recurrently disturbing nightmares and dreams.
Concealing emotions can give rise to stress-related physiological reactions, like an increase in heart rate, lightheadedness, dryness of mouth, etc.
The repression of negative emotions, such as anger, gives rise to elevated levels of stress.
The occurrence of stress is a result of the social disapproval of overt emotional expression that causes repression which is itself intimidating and stressful.
When emotions are unregulated, they might also bring about symptoms of depression over the long run.
What effects do suppressed emotions have on our health?
Related literature builds on the venerable idea that people who chronically inhibit the expression of their true emotions may be more prone to a wide range of diseases than those who are emotionally expressive.
Also in current times, there have been empirical reports of an association between the inhibition of anger and hostility on the one hand and essential hypertension and coronary heart disease on the other.
Studies by Pennebaker and his colleagues in 1997 demonstrated that individuals who repress their emotions also suppress their body’s immunity, making them more vulnerable to a variety of illnesses ranging from common colds to malignant cancer.
Cancer onset and progression are also highly dependent on how emotionally expressive you are.
Looking at the entire picture, it is clearly conclusive that emotions, however unacceptable they might be if left unexpressed or unregulated will lead to consequences that are far more fatal than imagined.
Shreyasi Debnath is a writer and a psychologist who focuses on mental health, self-care, and self-love.