The Tiny Slip That Almost Destroyed My Marriage
It's called 'stinkin' thinkin' — and it's a toxic destroyer.
Dziana Hasanbekava | Canva My wife, Carlin, and I were enjoying a wonderful dinner at the new vegan Caribbean restaurant in Willits when a friend and his wife saw us eating outside. "How’s the food here?" Henry wanted to know. "It’s great," we told them. "It’s real, authentic, handmade, and delicious." As we chatted they introduced us to Henry’s brother and his wife. They were in town for the wedding of Henry’s daughter. "I just happen to have a picture," Henry said as he scrolled through his smartphone. There was a lovely shot of his beautiful daughter in a stunning wedding gown looking up at her new husband. There is so much hope and desire in their eyes.
As a marriage and family counselor who has been working with men and women for more than 40 years, I can’t help but see both sides of the future: marriages that end and marriages that last. Approximately 50 percent of first marriages end in divorce. Also, 75-80 percent of men and women who have a failed first marriage will remarry, usually within five years. However, 66 percent of second marriages and 73 percent of third marriages end in divorce. Everyone who gets married says, "I do." No one says, "I do…until…I don’t." Everyone who gets married wants the "I do" to last "until death do we part", but too often it ends before then. I would know. It happened to me.
Being a therapist, presumably an expert in understanding love and marriage, I thought I would beat the odds. But my first marriage lasted less than ten years and produced two great children. I followed the pattern and remarried after three years, but that marriage was short-lived. Before going for number three and facing the 73 percent divorce statistic, I decided I’d get to the bottom of what kills relationships that begin with so much hope. I think I found the answer, at least one that made sense to me. I fell in love again and got married for the third time to a woman who had also been married twice before and had spent time learning how to have a marriage that lasts. All I can say is "So far, so good."
Carlin and I have been together now for 37 years. I can say we’re more in love now than ever and looking forward to another 37 years together and if there’s life after death, we hope to enjoy that together, as well. So, what kills most relationships? I can’t tell you how many times I’ve heard the phrase: "I still love them, but I’m no longer in love with them anymore." But that’s not the real killer. Falling out of love is just a symptom.
The real killer is Stinkin' Thinkin'. Let me explain: Stinkin’ thinkin’ is a term often heard in addiction recovery circles and speaks to the way an addict’s mind works in a way that often gets them in trouble.
For instance, one common expression of "stinkin’, thinkin" is the thought "I’m only going to have one drink, no more." For an alcoholic one drink is never enough. There’s a simple 3-step description that summarizes what happens:
- The man takes a drink.
- The drink takes a drink.
- The drink takes the man.
When our mind is in one state of consciousness we assume it will remain there. When we take the first drink our mind is unclouded by alcohol. But once we’ve taken drink number 1, we are now operating from an alcohol-impaired mindset and for an alcoholic, that is deadly. We don’t often think about love and addiction together, but there are some similarities and they can lead to the kind of stinkin’ thinkin’ that can kill a relationship. George Bernard Shaw recognized the connection when he observed: "When two people are under the influence of the most violent, most insane, most delusive, and most transient of passions, they are required to swear that they will remain in that excited, abnormal, and exhausting condition continuously until death do them part." So, we now have some clues about the kind of stinkin’ thinkin’ that kills relationships:
- "When I fall in love, it will be forever." (That’s a great lyric for a love song, but bad thinking for marriage.)
- "When I’m no longer in love, it means that all the real passion and pleasure that makes marriage worth all the stresses and strains, trials and tribulations, is over."
- "Without passion and pleasure, incompatibility sets in. We often become irritable, angry, and depressed. No one wants to be with someone they are incompatible with. It’s best to move on and find my real soul partner with someone who is a better fit for me."
Fortunately, we can improve our thinking about love and marriage, based on new science rather than old love songs. In my book, The Enlightened Marriage, I share the things that I’ve learned that can lead to the kind of marriage that stays juicy and passionate through the years. In my article, "The 5 Stages of Love and Why Too Many Stop at Stage 3," I help people understand how our thinking has caused us to misperceive important truths about love and marriage.
Once we understand what is going on in all 5 stages we can re-order our thinking as follows: Falling in love is nature’s trick to get humans to pick a mate so that our species carries on. It is short-lived in Stage 1. Becoming a couple in Stage 2 has less to do with making love than building a life. The disillusionment everyone goes through in Stage 3 does not mean you’ve picked the wrong partner. It means you are on the pathway to Stage 4: Real, Lasting Love. You don’t have to give up on being in love. If you dare to hang in through the turbulent waters of Stage 3, disillusionment, you have the opportunity to reclaim the passion and pleasure in Stage 4 after you’ve done the healing work necessary to live with a real lover, not a fantasy soulmate. In Stage 5, you get to embrace the 'power of two' and learn how you two can save the world."
All of this is quite simple, but simply doesn’t mean it’s easy. Anyone who has been in a successful, long-term marriage, knows it’s hard. And yes, there will be times when marriage is heavenly. But there will also be times when you feel "I’m going through it." But at times like these, it’s good to remember: "When you’re going through it…don't stop."
Jed Diamond is a licensed psychotherapist with a Ph.D. in International Health and a Licensed Clinical Social Worker. He is the author of The Whole Man Program: Reinvigorating Your Body, Mind, and Spirit.