The Subconscious Reason You're So Attracted To A Certain Type Of Guy
How your childhood affects your love life.
Tabitha Turner | Unsplash We are attracted to people for many different reasons — some of them conscious, some unconscious. Some of the conscious reasons have to do with how the person looks, how they act, the sound of their voice, the sensation of their touch, and other sensory cues. These are things we can identify and recognize; they are self-evident.
Yet, lying below the surface of our conscious awareness are subtle, less apparent factors that contribute to the degree of attractiveness we find in others. These factors relate to unspoken, even unknown wishes and desires for what we might be able to experience with this person.
They involve the agenda of the heart and they often are very distinct from the desires of the mind. Such an agenda can include the hopes of fulfillment, the healing of buried wounds, or a realization of our deepest life potential.
Other factors that make a person attractive to us have to do with what we sense we can experience with them, and how we think they can enhance the quality of our life. We may feel that they have the capacity to bring more healing, passion, peace, exuberance, ease, fulfillment, or joy into our lives.
The vast majority of us come into adulthood with some degree of unhealed childhood wounds, damage to our sense of self, and diminished self-esteem, self-worth, and self-trust. Consequently, we don't experience ourselves as being complete, or sufficient.
Often, what makes certain people particularly attractive to us is that when we are with them we experience ourselves as being more whole. In the process of being in the relationship, we may come to identify the places in ourselves where we feel fragmented and begin to heal those places that need our attention.
The healing process involves a willingness on our part to bring an accepting, loving awareness to places in ourselves that are in need of care and compassion and to be open to accepneedfrom others. When the level of trust in our relationship has sufficiently deepened, past unacknowledged wounds will naturally arise into awareness.
In the presence of a trusted partner, that which has previously been unbearable can be born. What had been repressed and denied can be exposed to the light of conscious awareness. It is this exposure, and the compassion and acceptance of a loving presence, that relationships can help us heal — they can transform pain into love.
There is a wide range of experiences that can wound our sense of self. Living in a family where all the interactions are superficial and shallow can cause a wound that may limit the capacity for meaningful connections with others. Physical or emotional abuse, neglect, rejection, extreme punishment, humiliation, ridicule, and abandonment can also be the source of unhealed wounds.
Growing up inevitably entails the process of going through ordeals, struggles, challenges, and difficulties. Some circumstances are extreme regarding the degree of violence, suffering, and terror such as those that occur in times of war, or when caregivers are severely mentally disabled.
When there is a failure to provide supportive, loving attention during a time of trauma, pain becomes internalized as an ongoing unhealed wound. The repair of these inner wounds can only come about through loving attention and unconditional acceptance from another.
The process, however, also reactivates the pain of abuse, neglect, or unfulfilled needs from the past that continue to go unmet in the present. Consequently, there needs to be a willingness to reawaken the pain of the original experiences, which may have been buried to forget them. But until the pain is re-exposed to the light of compassion, healing cannot occur.
Many people have experienced an extreme degree of trauma and emotional injury in their early lives. In some cases, they felt that they didn't belong or didn't want to belong to their original family. In their inability to either change or successfully adapt to their situation, they rejected their world in an effort to create a more tolerable reality.
Such a suto requires courage and resourcefulness since it involves a willingness to risk ties with others that have been based upon unhealthy family values. A strong, compassionate, and loving relationship can provide the support necessary to break old dysfunctional family patterns and promote the healing process.
Ironically, it is those who have qualities or tendencies most like the caregivers with whom we experienced the greatest degree of difficulty that we find most attractive. This isn't because we are gluttons for punishment, but rather because they are the ones with whom we can most effectively access our past experiences and feelings that require our attention.
Few of us enter into relationships with the conscious intention of recovering from emotional wounds or even an awareness of the specific nature of the wounds themselves. Yet in a loving, accepting, and trusting relationship there is a natural tendency to bring out all that has previously been withheld and denied.
The feeling of safety and compassion that is present in the relationship compels the emergence of that which requires care. The depth of the desire to experience wholeness allows us to confront the circumstances we found ourselves in as children and young adults.
This desire is often driven by a determination to free ourselves from the constraints of an inner world that limits our ability to live life fully, with authenticity, integrity, and passion. It is this mutual support that a partnership of two healed people can provide for one another that enables us to finally break free from the chains of the past.
The process is not one-sided. Even though it can at times appear that one partner is the "patient" in need of care and the other is the "provider," this is generally not the case. In reality, in most situations, both partners need healing and making efforts in different ways to recover their wholeness. We tend to be more attracted to those with whom we experience "matching wounds" — that is, those with whom we can most effectively contact the buried or denied pain that we need to access.
This process can be difficult and often more prolonged than we think it should be. It's generally not a decision that is made intentionally or even consciously. It is rather a state of being that couples are open to when they feel trusting of their partner and supported by them.
There is at these times an intuitive awareness that a restoration of wholeness is possible with this person. That recognition is the incentive to overcome the resistance that is natural to experience when one stands in the face of painful and fearsome experiences.
It's not surprising that so many people choose lives of "quiet desperation" rather than face their demons. Overcoming the natural, understandable resistance to this process requires courage, strength, commitment, and perhaps most importantly, the support of a partner who is willing to go the distance, even when it can feel like the stakes are one's very survival. In every case, the road is paved with surprises, failures, and victories.
In the process of embodying this commitment, these qualities and others become strengthened to the extent that we are no longer the same people who began the journey. Both partners ultimately become more autonomous as individuals, and more intimately bonded as a couple.
The path can be daunting, but the rewards are profound. This is the work that relationships require and it is truly a labor of love.
Linda Bloom, LCSW, and Charlie Bloom, MSW, are psychotherapists and relationship counselors who have worked with individuals, couples, groups, and organizations since 1975.