My Husband And I Have A Girlfriend — 'We Have A Great Dynamic As A Trio'

Love doesn't look the same for everyone.

Last updated on Aug 16, 2024

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Iris was unexpected. Over our first year in an open relationship, my husband, Flick, and I had found a groove. 

We’d each figured out the kinds and styles of relationships we were looking for and met some amazing partners. Then, as so often happens when you think you’ve got everything figured out, everything changes.

Now more than ever, open relationships are becoming less taboo. Statistics tell us that 4-9% of Americans engage in some kind of open relationship.

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I never expected my husband and I to have a girlfriend.

We are not that couple who opened up to find their perfect unicorn and live happily ever after as a threesome.

I have my local lovers and some wonderful long-distance partners scattered across the continent, a couple of whom I’d give the label boyfriend if we lived close enough to date. There are several female friends I’m extremely fond of and enjoy doing dirty things with. 

But I did not expect to have a girlfriend — and especially not to have a girlfriend with Flick.

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Meeting Iris and finding this thing between the three of us has been awesome.

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And strange, confusing, electric, devastating, euphoric, terrifying, and "how is this my life?!" hot.

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Our three-way dynamic works surprisingly well, even though I wouldn’t have expected it to.

The three of us have a great dynamic as a trio, yet the twosomes also click beautifully. We’re all such different people that each dynamic is very different, and I don’t live in a fantasy world where I expect things to be even or equal. That’s simply impossible.

At present, though, it seems like we’re all getting what we need, and it’s pretty great.

I have come across some challenges when, as the most introverted of the three, I’m not always up for getting together. I feel guilty that I’m "keeping them apart" when I turn down invites, but I always try to make it clear to Flick that it's okay for him to go on his own to spend the evening with Iris if he wants.

A few times I’ve forced myself to go out and be social against my gut need for solitude, and, as almost always happens when you take one for the team, it’s resulted in some emotional fireworks we’ve had to work through.

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Both Flick and Iris are more openly affectionate than I am naturally.

On our first date, we had a three-way make-out in one of our local pubs, despite the fact we’re not "out" to many people we know, and several of our friends live in that neighborhood. 

My inner inappropriate " alarm was clanging loudly in my head, but the beautiful woman kissing me dulled it to a faint buzz.

Besides, if friends had seen us, at least they’d have known we weren’t cheating — since both of us were involved.

One unexpected thing I’ve found tricky in the trio dynamic is that I often get overwhelmed by the cuddle pile, especially if I’m in the middle.

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I’m a pretty cuddly and tactile person, but it can feel oppressive to be hemmed in on both sides by their bodies. 

Neither of them has the same need for personal space I do, so I either make sure I’m on the outside of the snuggle sandwich, or I break free after about five minutes and lie across the end of the bed with a hand on each of them — but in my own space — while they wrap around one another. Perfection!

It's been challenging at times to see how lost the two of them can get in each other, but knowing how into me she is too takes a lot of that sting away.

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She and I have solo dates where we wander around downtown holding hands all giddy and giggling, then return to one of our places for scorching intimacy. And it is truly lovely to see Flick so smitten and go a little glazed when they’re together, or even just when he’s talking to her over text.

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The two of them are spending a weekend together while I go off to Portland to spend a weekend with one of my favorite people.

I’m so excited for them to deepen their connection, though I have to confess to having some insecure feelings about it. I get little pangs of feeling like I might get left behind as they progress in their relationship, but I just have to remind myself that each of our relationships is different and is going to progress at different speeds and in different ways.

Thankfully, we're all good communicators, and there’s an ease and feeling of safety in expressing our fears, concerns, and needs in what can be a very tricky dynamic.

As long as we keep using our words I’m confident we can navigate whatever unexpected curves are thrown our way.

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Listen now: How do you find other swingers? How do you find people to date?

As outsiders looking in, as people curious to get started, we all wonder if we’ll be able to do this, because there’s that foreign concept in the middle. 

Finding people to be intimate with. Finding people to date. Finding people not just okay with an open relationship, but enthusiastic about it. Tonight, we talk about the pursuit, of finding playmates and finding lovers.

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Kat Stark (they/them) is a freelance writer, author of the book Yelling In Pasties, and co-host of On The Wet Coast podcast.