I Quiet Quit My Marriage After 18 Years — 'All He Wanted To Do Was Sit On The Couch'

It’s not that our marriage was perfect (no such thing), but it was pretty good in the beginning. My husband and I liked each other, we had the same sense of humor, and we enjoyed a lot of the same activities. When we met he made good money and lived in a nice condo in a nice neighborhood. We had a blast in the early years of our relationship and marriage.

Of course, there were some issues that we worked through. I learned to navigate his anxiety and more often than not it was me who had to change to accommodate his discomfort. This wasn’t that big of a deal to me in the early years, as I had a docile personality and was a bit of a people-pleaser.

It wasn’t until after we had our child, twelve years into our marriage, that I started to notice just how much I had to take on, how little he did, and how much I had to limit and deny myself because I had to cater to his needs first.

I didn't realize it then but I was quiet quitting my marriage.

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I didn’t even cook for him or do his laundry. We hired cleaners. I imagine that these things made it that much harder for me to justify wanting to leave. The marriage wasn’t that bad. He at least paid half of the bills and took out the trash. It turns out those were the only two things he did.

We both worked full-time. But in addition to working full time and paying for half of all of the household expenses, I also handled all of the tasks around the house: washing dishes, cleaning, laundry, and prepping meals for our child. I paid all of the household bills and he paid me his half when I asked him for it.

According to Pew research, in 29% of marriages today, both spouses earn about the same amount of money. Even as financial contributions have become more equal in marriages, the way couples divide their time between paid work and home life remains unbalanced. Women take a heavier load on household chores and caregiving responsibilities, while men spend more time on work and leisure

We had cleaning people come twice a month, but there was still a lot to do with a messy toddler who required constant attention and care. When my child needed to go to the doctor or dentist, I was the one who took time off work and handled it. Never once did my husband even offer to help.

If I was lucky, I could leave work a little early to go to the gym — that was the only time I had to myself. Every other moment was devoted to somebody else who needed me to do something for them: My work, my child, my husband.

After he came home from work, my husband would sit in the same spot on the couch he’d been sitting on for months. He would scroll through social media and drink vodka until he went to bed. The sound of ice clunking into a glass became a triggering sound for me.

One day, I gently pointed out that I felt like I was a single mom with a roommate.

I said that he never helped around the house and that I was doing everything in addition to my full-time job. He simply said, “I know”, and the conversation stopped there. I knew nothing would change. I was too tired and defeated to fight about it, to fight about anything, so I let it go.

Around that time, the intimacy stopped. I initiated a few times, and sometimes he would go through the motions, but eventually, he started saying no more often than yes. It became harder for me to initiate because it hurt to be turned down, and I was reaching a point where I wasn’t attracted to him anymore for all the other reasons I mentioned before.

Participants of one study from the Journal of Family and Marriage expressed a range of reactions to involuntary celibacy; however, they were almost universally negative and frequently included feelings of frustration, depression, and rejection.

Anger, resentment, and profound hurt seethed under my calm demeanor. I kept a mask on, but it was getting harder and harder to pretend to be happy. He didn’t notice anyway. It wasn’t exactly a conscious decision, but it was at this point that I realized I was quiet quitting my marriage.

I made myself smaller and smaller to make him comfortable, to make the relationship work, and to let him live the life he wanted to live. He was giving up on life and I wasn’t done yet. I was still a vibrant, young woman with goals and interests I wanted to pursue. I wanted to travel, go to festivals and concerts, and try new restaurants.

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I wanted to embrace life and all it had to offer, and all he seemed to want to do was sit on the couch and feel sorry for himself.

As my child got older and a little more independent, I started finding more spare time to focus on my interests. I was meal-prepping and going to the gym more often. I worked out almost every day. I created playlist after playlist to drive my workouts. I would listen to energetic songs about being in love, bitter and sad songs about breakups and unrequited love, and songs about physical intimacy. It was the only outlet I had. As I dropped weight and became healthier, my libido raged.

I Quiet Quit My Marriage After 18 Years — 'All He Wanted To Do Was Sit On The Couch'

Once I finally checked out, I knew it was over.

I didn't realize it then but I was quiet quitting my marriage.

One day, I gently pointed out that I felt like I was a single mom with a roommate.

I wanted to embrace life and all it had to offer, and all he seemed to want to do was sit on the couch and feel sorry for himself.

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