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Slightly jealous over BFs past....Help?
I've been seeing an amazing guy for the last couple of years, and for some reason I am STILL bothered by some of his past.
He lived with a woman for YEARS, he was madly in love with her, and she destroyed the relationship by cheating, so that relationship ended.And he has been with a few other women, but he never mentions any of them, he only ever mentions her...which means to me, she was the one who meant the most, which makes me feel a little inferior I guess....
After he broke up with this woman, he moved in with a female roommate. I don't know how they met, he hasn't mentioned her much, all I know is that they lived together for about 4 or 5 years. She was apparently just a friend- he says they never slept together, never had any romantic feelings, and he basically lived there because the rent was cheap and she needed financial help with her children. I haven't seen a picture of her, but for some reason it bothers me like crazy wondering what she looked like...was she skinnier than me? prettier? It sounds petty, I know....Anyways, I was extremely uncomfortable with him living with another woman, and we discussed it and he decided that he didn't want to lose me so he moved out of her house on his own. He claims they don't talk much, but I feel like they must have had such a deep connection living together for years like that- It HAD to be deep if there was no sex involved and he still wanted to be around her...And that deep connection that they possibly had really bothers me, and I don't know why. I know he says they were only friends...but still. I wonder.
Anyways, he's the most amazing man I've ever known, and he treats me wonderfully...I don't doubt him telling me the truth (And what is past is HIS past) but for some reason, these two "relationships" from his past really bother me. I wish I understood why. :( Why does this bother me so much? What can I do to stop my brain from going a million miles a second?